Sunday, July 25, 2010 | By: Wa@Wawek@Siti ;)

cuteness! heh...

It's been a while since I've procrastinated on the world wide web. So, since it's a Sunday and I did do some labwork this morning, I think it's okay to procrastinate a bit. One of the outcome - daisypath. I've seen many bloggers and friends on Facebook displaying them on their page. They are so cute! This is my version. Heh...

Daisypath Anniversary tickers

Cheers!
Monday, July 12, 2010 | By: Wa@Wawek@Siti ;)

Sense of belonging...

Someone once told me getting here, to the Sunny Coast, is hard and it's just too far away from Brisbane city. Long train rides and limited bus services. The traveling is just too tiring and time consuming. Unless you have a car, it's not really worth coming to the Coast. In other words, I'm not that much worth of a company or as a friend to go through all the hassle of traveling? *Sigh* It's kinda sad because I have been traveling via public transport from the Coast to Brisbane city a lot; gatherings, birthday celebrations, giving support and just to hangout. Does it all not count for something? *Sigh* I try to make the best of my traveling coz after all, what's life without a little bit of hardship, right? I know, I know... I made the choice to do all that. No one forced me to! *Sigh*  (Hehehe.. that was me being all dramatic and feeling sorry for myself!

I guess when you're always with people from different culture and background (and not from your own country, that is..huhuhu..), you would do what some people wouldn't even think of doing to get a sense of belonging that you sometimes don't get where you are. I've been living in the Coast for 15 months now, but I still get stares all the time (freakish and strange ones too sometimes), I only speak my own language when mr. hubby calls me everyday (or when I talk to myself?!Heh..), I can't go out with other people so much coz sometimes I'm scared I will annoy them when I need to find a place to pray every few hours, I'm always by myself doing shopping, walking and just about anything and I even think in English most of the time now! Huhuuu! Having said all that, I still love where I'm at. Yeah, maybe I'll be alone and sometimes miserable. At least, I have a comfortable granny flat to go home to everyday after Uni, I'm still able to feed myself decently everyday, I have Uni to think and work of and I'll always have mr. hubby, me familia and friends who loves and appreciates me for what I am (errr..friends...not that many, but I think I have.. Don't I?Hikhik...) (Comforting myself and making myself feel good session! Hahaha!)

So... now that's all out of the way, just want to share more pictures of my crib and the surroundings...
the lounge / TV area and the front door front inside the house
accross the street from the house
about 200 metres walk to the bus stop

Anyone who feels like visiting the Coast and have extra time to drop by my place, you're always welcome.  (Do you dare to? ;-) Heh..)

Cheers!
Saturday, July 10, 2010 | By: Wa@Wawek@Siti ;)

Lost and Found

I've kinda lost a bunch of friends.
Hmmm..staright to the point, huh?!
Anyways, it's all my fault so I'm giving myself time to think about it and change for the better.
Things happened for a reason and only yourself can work out what to gain from all that happened.
As I was sulking and walking to Uni in the rain this morning (without an umbrella?), it made me think and asked myself...
What am I doing? 
Why am I here?
What's the purpose of moving thousands of miles away from everyone I love the most and miss out on everything I enjoy??!!!
Hey!
Maybe this is a wake up call??!!
Maybe it's just to remind me how weak and fragile I am as a human being, still learning and will never stop making mistakes. (Hopefully mistakes that I can't help myself from making. Not stupid ones!!!)
.............
Am I happy?
Surprisingly, I am.
Not over the moon happy but I'm not deeply saddened that I want to leave everything and quit.
What can I do?
I'm now going to seek refuge in the world of tiny beings which I've not been fully paying attention to for a while.

Cheers!